The Calgary Journal
The Calgary Journal

Voices

As a young girl, driving out to the village of Standard, Alta. for the first time was like driving to outer space. I had rarely ever seen cows in fields or canola growing tall along the side of a double-lane highway. The car ride went on for what seemed like hours, as it usually did in the car when I was small. As I got older, I truly appreciated the drive to my grandparents' house and now that I’m driving there myself it seems shorter than ever.

When loved ones die, there is often pressure to deal with their possessions. The pressure to sort can come from multiple sources  — family members, friends, even well-meaning acquaintances. This story explores the experiences of two Calgary women — Joy Pavelich and Megan Henkelman — after the deaths of loved ones.

The cycle of addiction is difficult to break free from. However, recovery is not as simple as cutting out a behaviour. It is a progressive journey, often with many setbacks, towards physical and mental wellness.

I’m cold. I’m hungry. All of us are. My mom has been gone a long time. I don’t think she’s coming back. My four siblings and I huddle together to face the long night in hope that the morning will be better.